atelophobia

atelophobia began on the 25th of April 2020 and is characterised by the feeling of never being enough. During this time period, I was stuck in a situation where I felt trapped and could not give my friends the time they deserved.

Despite having caring friends and support, I felt like I was not allowed to reach out to them, distancing myself from them and feeling more and more alone. I’ve learned from atelophobia that I am someone who needs a sense of belonging and companionship.

I felt as though my existence was a fa├žade and that people would eventually discover that, as described by the next song ‘impostor syndrome’.

lyrics

[Verse 1]
I feel trapped inside my skin
Holding back fears held within
I am scared that one day you’ll see
I won’t be what you expect of me

[Verse 2]
I want to be set free from this curse
Constantly feel like I’m not the others
I want to be set free from this curse
Constantly feel like I’m not the others

[Verse 3]
Can you hear?
Through storms that rage
Can you see
I wish I could change

[Pre-Chorus]
When I fade
Into the shadows
No-one will know

[Chorus]
I want to be enough (enough)
Enough