to feel alive

I began writing “to feel alive” on the 23rd of January 2021. I wanted to write something more danceable and influenced by genres like Synthpop and Indie Pop. I started to structure out the song and then was introduced to Scarlet Bishop, an insanely talented saxophonist and sibling of one of my best friends. I sent them the song and they sent back audio files of them playing the saxophone and my mind was blown. We added the saxophone to the song and the instrumental was complete. All the song needed was vocals.

We went through many vocalists, asking many out of the realm of the underground EDM scene, unfortunately to no avail. I then had the idea of asking another really good friend Benana who nearly instantly returned with some of the most catchy vocals I’ve ever heard. I instantly fell in love and pushed for the song to be released as soon as possible out of sheer excitement.

The initial theme of the song was the repetitive nature of life. Having to do the same tasks every day, with each day feeling the exact same. Benana brought his own flare to the song, bringing emotionally-driven and catchy vocals, completing the song.

This is one of my favourite songs I have ever been a part of, and cannot thank Scarlet Bishop and Benana for their contributions. At the time of writing this song, I was in a creative block and also felt blunted generally and little pleasure from things. Working with these two insanely talented individuals brought a breath of fresh air to my music and life as a whole.

lyrics

[Chorus]
I just want to feel alive
Been locked up all this time
I just want to feel alive
Can’t you see you could be mine
I just want to feel alive

[Verse 1]
Yeah, all of these days now
Feeling the same
Losing my mind yeah
Going insane

I hear you calling but I see in black and white
Trying to feel alive like every other night

[Verse 2]
Can’t you see
That I’m not alright
And I’m still falling
Falling cause you’re not around
Yeah you
Were my true sunlight

[Chorus]
I just want to feel alive
Been locked up all this time
I just want to feel alive
Can’t you see you could be mine
I just want to feel alive
I just want to feel alive
I just want to feel alive

[Bridge]
Tell me where are you now when I need you thе most (Need you the most)
Am I still In love or sleeping with your ghost?

[Chorus]
Cause I just want to feel alive
Feel alive
Feel alive in your arms
(In your arms)