a beautiful, yet hurtful life
timeline: 2022-2023
I began writing ‘a beautiful, yet hurtful life’ in June 2021. I wanted to make something different to the previous albums and wanted to make my music more raw and heartfelt. This album will release throughout 2022 and 2023, with each song telling a different story. There will also be revisited versions of older music, told in a different light.
I also began painting in early 2022, and have designed each song’s cover art. The artwork depicts what I imagine when I hear each song being played.
To date, this is the biggest project I have worked on, with 29 tracks, each with a painting and story of its own.
The entirety of the album is tuned with A=430 Hz.
When I was very young, my mother and I would draw and paint with coloured pencils and watercolours. When I was 10, she bought me a canvas to paint on and we used to compete over who could paint the most and the best pictures. Our favourite things to paint were flowers and landscapes such as the beach. This alongside artists like Quentin Blake form the inspiration behind my paintings.
tracklist
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- leaving you made me feel alive again
- at the end of time
- forget me
- our downfall [downfall ii]
- painting flowers ii
- i wish i wanted to be here
- always fine, always alright
- i’m fine with being alone
- did you get what you wanted?
- leave it all behind w/ Ben Allwright
- i give up, you win
- we could escape reality [adventure ii]
- lifeline ii
- this is goodbye
- kindred spirits ii
- stop tearing me apart
- inadequate after all
- i don’t need you in my life (feat. JERRY AK)
- neurosis ii w/ Crosswise
- help me find a way to breathe w/ Crosswise
- at what cost?
- a lesson learned
- i’ll always be here
- now and forever
- nothing special ii
- we can watch the sky fall
- everywhere i go ii
- life was better with you
- a beautiful, yet hurtful life
