you’re not you anymore

you’re not you anymore began on the 8th of March 2021. It started as a guitar loop with drum breaks, and I had no clue where to take it. Eventually, I added a breakcore section and then contacted my good friend roix to collaborate.

This song describes the time I started to sense people I held close to me were no longer who they were. Although this can be a natural progression of one’s character, this song highlights how it occurred in a malignant sense. you’re not you anymore describes a very difficult part of my life.

I was living an idealised and false reality, seeing them through rose-tinted glasses, unable to accept that the versions of them I wanted were gone and that they slowly morphed into people that did more harm than good.

I was hoping that they would change and told myself I had to just give them time. I thought that I could help them and that the reason these changes were happening was because of things I could change. I made the mistake of putting them above everything else to try and help but eventually came to terms with what they once were had faded.

I’ve learned from you’re not you anymore that unfortunately, people do change over time, and negative circumstances can make people better, but also worse. I’ve also realised that poor mental health is not an excuse to be unpleasant and that I do not deserve to be on the receiving end of their outbursts.

lyrics

[Verse 1]
As time goes on I feel you fade
You tell me it’s all in my head
But we both know
What we have is destined to be dead

[Verse 3]
You tell me that I’m not who I was
How do you expect me to be so
When you’re not you anymore

[Chorus]
Fighting for
A hopeless cause
I give my all
For nothing at all
Why won’t you
Tell me why
You’re not you anymore

[Chorus]
Fighting for
A hopeless cause
I give my all
For nothing at all
Why won’t you
Tell me why
You’re not you anymore